It's refreshing for a while

For the past week, I've been letting myself be a computer victim. Again. Since we have WiFi already, I can use my laptop here in my room and watch all the stuff on the Internet without worrying about nosy family members! Haha. Hooooy I don't watch porn ha. Haha. I just like absorbing all the stuff that I watch.

What do I watch? Hmm. Lemme think. Some real hardcore stuff like Politics, Economics, History, etc. You know, all the brainy stuff?! And all the no-nonsense stuff too. Very very serious. Especially for my age.

Fuck that. Haha. In fact, for 3 days straight, I did nothing but watch Anime and YouTube videos. Gawd. I'm beginning to think that having WiFi isn't healthy for me after all. Duuuude, I've watched 3 DIFFERENT Anime series in 3 DAYS. WTF. I also didn't check my phone nor did I talk to anyone for that period of time.

After 3 days, I finally charged my phone and found 6 messages and 3 missed calls. Wenk. Haha. Let's just say that I felt so alienated at that time. Not only did I miss a gimik with hs friends, I was also starting to think in Anime motion. Random japanese sentences would run through my mind without me even knowing what it means and I was starting to become irritable.

Just like what I wrote for my Eng12 Argumentative paper. The person cannot distinguish anymore what is virtual and real. He/She tends to long for the media that he/she is exposed to and becomes miserable to accept the fact that her/his life isn't the same with the game(in this case, the storylines in the Videos).

Hoy. Hindi naman ako nabaliw. In fact, it was refreshing to not feel the urge to please someone else or the responsibility to respond that you get when you look at your phone. It was a bit liberating, actually.

Let's just say that I had a glimpse of being a loner for a couple of days. It was liberating and refreshing for the first few days, but after that you just know that you can't really survive without talking to anyone. You'll lose your sense of democracy and will eventually feel empty.

In the long run, being alone is good once in a while, but being a loner for your entire life to "discover yourself" beats the purpose of living. How can you contribute to humanity when all you think about is yourself? It's like you created your own world where only you can survive in. It beats the purpose of life and existensialism.

What am I talking about anyway? I don't have the credibility of saying those things, but what the heck. Maybe I can support my stand sometime in the future.

-april08-