why o why

you now have somebody else. good for you. it pains me to see you bloom in presence of sunlight. aren't you afraid of coming out? of the truth? of me?
how can you be so insensitive? so ignorant? my ardor for you vanished in an instant. i am now again broken. you really are cruel. please oh please stop smiling. are you mocking me? my anxiety has taken it's toll on me. haven't you had enough already? aren't you happy? you're draining all the ardor out of me.

please stop.

-july 2007-