just another day

wipee!!! classes are suspended today :P finally! i get to experience the suspension of classes-even when i'm in college! woohoo!

oh well, i think i kinda overslept last night. i just feel so damn tired this week and i don't even know why. it's not even hell week yet. but we're certainly getting there. i got to prepare an oral presentation on Penmanship by Jose Dalisay for Lit. i admit,i am kinda nervous, it's gonna be my first "formal" report away from high school. it's gonna be different. :/

since there aren't classes today, i might start doing 1 out of 4/5 papers for FIL or Pnoi( i like calling it Pnoi). demmet! i gotta make critique papers using theories such as Russian formalism, existensialism, feminism, surrealism, etc. it certainly isn't hs anymore. before, i just used motherly quotes and moral lessons and i was good to go. now's a lot harder. i got to cite textual evidence and the archetypal approach isn't applicable anymore. so wala ng EKO-KUL-POL at mga aral sa buhay na dinadakdak ni dacutan. hayayay.

these past few months, i've been thinking of switching courses. i don't think i can bare management, accounting, and a 6-unit calculus subject. to tell you the truth, i can't really see myself graduating form my course and actually working in a bank like all my family members are doing. i just can't digest the formality, the diplomat ways of professionalism, and the tight schedules that i am about to face. frequent meetings, boring oral reports, statistics analysis, and money matters. my personality just isn't like that. for the past year, i have been in constant denial that i have entered the wrong course. i kept on "forcing" myself to like it and accept it.

let's just see next year...

miranda, i have a confession to make. i envy you and your course in UP. you just can't imagine how i wish to have your course. well, not exactly. heck, i can't even draw properly. :P i just miss the fun of art and creating new stuff. i like innovating things, you see. maybe, i just miss my hobby. in short, i just miss the informality of art and being creative. i miss the free-spirited ambiance and a no-fuss way of thinking. i've been denying my creative side recently. i guess i'm just too tamad lately. grabe, what has happened to me? i'm so lazy with school and just about anything. i think i may be "dematuring" (is there such a word?) basta. i think my bad habits are coming back again. looong story.

oh well, here's a toast to my confused mind. may it finally decide my destiny.

cheers!

-august 2007-