say auf wiedersehen

it's weird having someone always by your side and then realize that they just vanished into thin air. it's just weird when someone becomes part of your daily routine, your everyday life. you txt each other every morning a simple "good morning" and wish each other a good day. you know every little detail of each other's lives and could even finish each other's sentences. when you're down, he/she will just treat you to ice cream and will give you a bear hug to top it all of. after that, you feel a lot better. you always think about each other and you both know that you love one another.

but then, he/she just disappears. his/her sweet texts and thoughtful presents aren't there anymore. he/she calls you "baby" and then ignores you. he/she becomes cold without any explanations at all. for the first few weeks, you let him/her have their own space, thinking that this will just pass. you continue to dream about your future with kids and having your own house.

but, he/she doesn't come back. she/he may be present but he/she isn't with you anymore in mind, body, and soul. (hay crappy line)

he/she continues to drift away until even you can't see his/her silhouette because he/she is just so far away already.

you mope around for days, weeks, months, and even years, hoping that he/she will come back soon with open arms.

to your dismay, he/she doesn't. he/she is near you but he/she has moved on. you hear his/her warm words and cheery laughter but this time, it isn't for you. it's for the person beside him/her.

you just have to bear all the pain, honey. it's time that you moved on. it may seem hard at first, yes even if you've been waiting for years, you just have to bear with it.

you can mope around for days and maybe weeks, but please don't turn them into years. (even though it already has)

now turn that frown into a smile and say auf wiedersehen, sayonara, paalam, or goodbye.

-september 2007-