Socrates and Adam Smith unite

I can't believe I'm actually saying this, but I'm gaining weight!!!! Woot! After 4 years of being told to gain weight, I am actually making progress right now! Not only that, my blockmates have developed this mannerism of actually calling me obese. Yes, every single day and every single hour. It's just weird that I finally got what I wanted. I finally know someone who doesn't let me sleep until he bombs me with nuclear messages concerning my ultimate lard-full fatness. They just don't know that I really don't mind. Actually, being called fat is actually very amusing. It's weird how I don't hear the words "Pataba ka nga!" that often anymore. It's just really refreshing. :)

At first, it was just entertaining to watch my guy blockmates snicker as I propel( yes! just like an elisi WAHAHA) my arms to give them an ultimate wack or gather up the highest initial velocity of my hands before giving them all my manly love. :P But now, as I think about it, maybe I am gaining a bit of weight. I've gained about 4 pounds this week and food is always on my mind! My tummy is bulging a bit too.

Hmm. That's weird. It's only now that I've become this weight conscious (if you can actually call it weight conscious). I've been doing push-ups, crunches, and a whole lot of stretching this past week. And it's not solely because I don't like a bulging puson, but because I'm really starting to take note of my health. I always feel tired kasi e. Even when I wake up. So far, I think it's helping a bit. But I still had to take a nap awhile ago. Hehe.

I bought a pint of my fave Haagen Dazs Strawberry ice cream last week! Yay! I could just die someday from eating it everyday. :O It's just so damnnnn good. It's a piece of heaven, really.

I'm done reading 2 out of the 3 required readings for Histo this week. And as weird as it sounds, I'm kinda glad that my prof assigned us that 60++ page reading. I think I'm beginning to like Philosophy at its raw form. I used to shy away from it, since I found thinking too much about every simple thing tiresome. But maybe, "it" may be the lost puzzle piece I've been looking for quite some time now.

It's a long week ahead of me! Eco long test again! 4 freaking chapters! :O Histo "orals"! ITM Excel test and Business Defense(friday)!

At least I'll be attending my first ever debut on Saturday! Yay Otts! I'll be seeing Iv2 again! yay! :D

-April08-

bizzy dizzy hizzy

I get home at around past 6 everyday so you can guess how tired I am by that time.

It's 6:47 right now and I'm already longing for my comfy bed and fluffy pillows. :S I don't get to "relax" much anymore as before. I go straight to the bathroom then it's dinner time already as soon as I squeeze all the excess water from my hair. I eat for like only about 15 minutes then bump my forehead with the 2 books that I have to read. Like I said, in class, it's as if nothing's happening. I'm not learning anything from my eco class. The book is my sole friend.

In fairness, I've learned a lot already in ITM. I've never realized that MS Word had so many tools. :O At, mahirap rin pala siya. And hella Excel! :((

Oh well. I'm just really tired right now. I've been sleeping really late lately. At hindi pa ako nakakapag-aral ng maayos sa lagay na iyon. I also feel so tired even if I just woke up from an 8-hour sleep. It's just weird. I've been doing mini exercises lately, and I think it's helping me a bit. Haha :P

Waa I'm scared of Histo. :O I just checked Blue Reggie, a site dedicated for Ateneans who would like to see other students' ratings of past profs. Okayyy...there was only one recommendation for my current histo prof. And it's not really comforting.
It goes something like this:

Pro: he's a really nice guy and I think he curves our scores. He also knows what he's teaching!

Con: His tests are like HELL!!! Plus, in 30 minutes, he would name 50 events/places that you need to memorize.

Okaaay. Haha. But at least Sir said that we were lucky to have him during the summer sem since his tests are a lot easier. I just hope his standard of easy is actually easy!

Oh well papel, bye for now. I still have to DEEPLY understand the speeches of Perikles! We have a graded recitation on Friday and Sir will ask us questions and we're not allowed to sit down until we satisfy him :( It's individual and it's for 15 minutes! :O

Good luck to me. Sa swerte ko pa naman, feeling ko ako pa mabubunot. :S

-April08-

i miss gluing my butt to the couch

Long gone are the days when I see reaching the remote while munching on popcorn as a hassle. Even getting my lazy butt out of the couch seemed such a problem whenever I had to answer nature's call or something. Well, maybe they're not that long gone. I can still do that during my sem break. But still, summer isn't as fun as before anymore. It's all thanks to ITM, Eco, and History.

History:
Hmm, Let's just say that my prof thinks he's the ultimate fashionista as he pairs a graffiti polo with black and shiny( yes!shiny!) corduroy pants and brown semi-platform shoes. Not only does he wears tribal necklaces to "accentuate" his ultimate porma, he unbuttons his polos too! T.T My goodness. Ack. I can actually see his cleavage already. :O Good thing he doesn't have any chest hairs! That would have been even more gross! Now I know how Miranda feels :)) For five consecutive days, I've never seen him wear the same pair of shoes twice. He's also very entertaining to watch when he gives us a 10-minute break as he wears his whole-earphones and bobs his head to the music. Haha. Don't get me wrong though. He's really nice but he's just really...unusual? He laughs at his own hirits. I at least respond with a chuckle as a sign of sympathy, really. Most of his hirits are rather super corny orrrr doiii answers. Seeing his expecting face is even funnier than what he's actually saying. He also gives unannounced recitations. We have to stand in the middle of the aisle and explain or narrate stuff that he asks. Boo :( And if he's satisfied (which is almost impossible since he said that only 3 out of a said class seem to satisfy him)

Eco:
Reading our super duper thick Eco book is even more entertaining than listening to his lectures. We're 80 in the class btw. :/ ANDDDD he's asking us to submit a 35-page report regarding the economic growth of our country during the term of PGMA . Woooow salamat ah. Kill me now. I really had to be on his class, dba? Allen and Lorraine only have simple eco projects.....:((

Oh well, in the long run, I know that I'm luckier than they are. Besides, what's the high tuition for right? It isn't about having an easy time and college and easy A's. It's about fully stretching your capabilities and harnessing your skills. :) Iyan na lang iniisip ko. Mas madami naman akong matutunan pag ganito. :)

ITM:
ITM is funny. :)) I took the accelerated track so that means I have a 3 hour class (3-6) yet it doesn't feel that way most of the time. Our prof (I call him OUR fresh grad since he only graduated 2 weeks ago.) usually dismisses us after an hour and a half or so. We also had our first exam too. Last Wednesday. Studying 70++ slides sure wasn't easy peasy, but the test itself was surprisingly an easy one. I memorized lotsa info that wasn't necessary pala (in terms of what was in test). Oh well. :)

It was Jango's surprise bday bash last thursday! It was held at a Cowboy-themed resto at Bonifacio High Street and we were all in costumes! Well...kinda :P I had to bring my cowboy hat through my classes in Ateneo! Haha. All the people who saw it said it was cute. Someone even wore it and made a cowboy dance! Okaaaay ewww. Pause. Delete. It's bad for my eyes! :))

We left Ateneo at around 6 but it was soo traffic so we arrived a few minutes after 7. We got off at Serendra and then realized we left our gift in the car. :)) We ran our way through the streets and shops before finally reaching the resto. Miranda was in her heels and seeing her "tiptoe-run" was hilarious! HAHAHA. We were all screaming and laughing our heads off because we knew we looked STUPID. :))

We were about to take a deep sigh of relief when suddenly...

Janggo(in her UST uniform) : OH MY GAWD!!!!!

The 3 of us froze for like 5 seconds.

Makis: Ano ginagawa mo dito?

Jango: Ano ka ba, alam ko na! Haha

HAHAHA.

The food was oh so so good!!! Tenders, fries, and HONEY MUSTARD DIJON!!!! <3>


purikura!!

I still have to read loadsssssssss of stuff for Histo and study for my Eco test on Monday sooooo pai pai!

-April08-

otsukaresama deshita

I'll be going back to school tomorrow to fix my subjects for my summer. Apparently, they took out my Eco because my 2nd yr units were enough already. But I really want to take Eco for summer since I'll be bombarded next sem with Accounting, LS, Psych, Calculus, etc. I just want to be done with at least one math-related subject para naman mas magaan ng kaunti. Kahit kaunti lang.

The original plan tomorrow is to go to IslandCove overnight with blockmates but I don't think it'll push through. Hay.

My summer break will be over soon. I don't want to go to school yet. I'm not feeling it yet. I'm still a bit tired and I'm dreading my daily 3-hour class of ITM. HAY computers! Programming was my hatest subject during hs, and I don't think it'll change this summer.

I also started "studying" Japan for our trip. We'll be commuting all throughout so now I'm trying to familiarize myself with famous spots and how to actually go to the spots. HAVE YOU SEEN THEIR RAILWAY MAP?!?! After studying it for like 3 effing hours, I had a migraine! My goodness. I also have to make the itinerary for the trip, since Dad thinks studying Japanese and watching Jdrama and Anime is enough for me to know Japan. I'll lead the way daw. Aww man. But I guess this will serve as an entree for me before I dive myself into serious traveling. Diba nga, I plan to travel around the world? So, I guess it's time that I toughen myself a bit and learn to be efficient when I'm not in my comfort zone. Ganyan naman talaga ang totoong buhay.


I bet Dad will be pushing me to be the one to ask directions and stuff. In Japanese too. Hmm I have no problem asking per se, I just don't know if I can actually understand their directions. :))

I also finished my 4th marathon! Hehe, and instead of watching it for one day, I gave my body a break and watched it in 2 days. hehe. :p This'll be my last "blow" for summer. :P Hanazakari no Kimitachi e! Aka Hana Kimi. Yeah I know, I'm such a loser for watching it only now, but nobody told me that the storyline was swak with my personality! Haha. I like Girl-fantasy (Shoujo) storylines. Tipong a girl disguises herself in an all-boys school, joins a super hot club, and where all the hot male characters fall for her. :)) (Ouran) Waa don't get me started! I just might blab all throughout!

Hai. Ja mata! (Seeya!)

-april08-

It's refreshing for a while

For the past week, I've been letting myself be a computer victim. Again. Since we have WiFi already, I can use my laptop here in my room and watch all the stuff on the Internet without worrying about nosy family members! Haha. Hooooy I don't watch porn ha. Haha. I just like absorbing all the stuff that I watch.

What do I watch? Hmm. Lemme think. Some real hardcore stuff like Politics, Economics, History, etc. You know, all the brainy stuff?! And all the no-nonsense stuff too. Very very serious. Especially for my age.

Fuck that. Haha. In fact, for 3 days straight, I did nothing but watch Anime and YouTube videos. Gawd. I'm beginning to think that having WiFi isn't healthy for me after all. Duuuude, I've watched 3 DIFFERENT Anime series in 3 DAYS. WTF. I also didn't check my phone nor did I talk to anyone for that period of time.

After 3 days, I finally charged my phone and found 6 messages and 3 missed calls. Wenk. Haha. Let's just say that I felt so alienated at that time. Not only did I miss a gimik with hs friends, I was also starting to think in Anime motion. Random japanese sentences would run through my mind without me even knowing what it means and I was starting to become irritable.

Just like what I wrote for my Eng12 Argumentative paper. The person cannot distinguish anymore what is virtual and real. He/She tends to long for the media that he/she is exposed to and becomes miserable to accept the fact that her/his life isn't the same with the game(in this case, the storylines in the Videos).

Hoy. Hindi naman ako nabaliw. In fact, it was refreshing to not feel the urge to please someone else or the responsibility to respond that you get when you look at your phone. It was a bit liberating, actually.

Let's just say that I had a glimpse of being a loner for a couple of days. It was liberating and refreshing for the first few days, but after that you just know that you can't really survive without talking to anyone. You'll lose your sense of democracy and will eventually feel empty.

In the long run, being alone is good once in a while, but being a loner for your entire life to "discover yourself" beats the purpose of living. How can you contribute to humanity when all you think about is yourself? It's like you created your own world where only you can survive in. It beats the purpose of life and existensialism.

What am I talking about anyway? I don't have the credibility of saying those things, but what the heck. Maybe I can support my stand sometime in the future.

-april08-

pat and tap. whoa! kahit balikatrin mo pa iyong salita

Yesterday was weird. It was really my first time to wait for my turn in St. Luke's Hospital for a certain "test". Gawd, I was so nervous. The hotel lobby-like ambiance did not seem to soothe my nerves at all as I painstakingly put on one of those hospital robes. I was alone too. Only patients were allowed inside the area and I just couldn't distract myself with the too-nice-for-hospitals striped shantung curtains since I was too shaky to do that. I think the lady beside me was just too polite to tell me to NOT TREMBLE. :))

Haha.

Oh well. We all have our firsts. It was kinda traumatizing though. :/ Good thing the results turned out to be negative :) Thank God.

Checking something online made me all giddy too. I checked my grades yesterday and I just couldn't believe what I saw. Yay, it's my first time. :) I just couldn't help smiling for the rest of the day thinking of the inititals "DL". Oh well. I know that grades shouldn't be the basis of a person's existence but seeing all the hard work that you've put in for months is still something.

It isn't everything. But it is something. Numbers and letter grades should not encase your humanity or your mission in life but it does give you a little sense of achievement. Even just a little. It doesn't have to be OHMYGAWD-I'MGONNAHAVEAGREATJOBBECAUSEOFTHIS kind of grades. In fact, I don't think a D in your transcript is enough for the job interviewer to not accept you. You have to do a lot more than that. AWHOLELOT. Hehe.

But grades still gives you this gentle pat (or more like a tap) on the back. :)

-april08-